I'm locked into what some would call a self destructive spiral, I call it life. No its not that bad its just I need to start looking after myself. I know I am not what most people would call fat but I freak out the moment I notice a belly and I've been freaking out a lot lately. Between medication and a complete and utter despair over money well things haven't been the best. Thus my eating and comfort seeking has increased, causing me to loose a grip on my body.

Oh well I wont go into the sordid details but I'm trying to join a Kendo club but I have been distracted by another girls night out. I know its a bad idea because I start my new job in the morning. Oh well you know what they say fools shall fall. What they forgot to aid was well off their head with drink and off the ground with heels.